thought 3:

is noise really necessary when playing sports?

not anymore

Fatin, if Fred nak balik kat you, you nak tak?

Tak nak.... If you asked me the same question a month ago, i probably would've said yes. But things are different now.

I found happiness from within myself.

I clearly never knew you, but...

you've always seemed to me like an extremely happy person; someone who makes everybody else smile. It's sad to hear you're gone.

Rest in Peace

all this talk about being with someone for the long haul is making me dizzy...

thinking about marriage kinda scares me now.

there are far too many things to consider before you devote your life to one person.

Will he really love me and stay faithful for the rest of his life? Will he be able to provide for me? Will he choose to resort to violence when things get tough? Will he be able to guide me? Will he stifle me and choose never to let me work or have friends once we're married? Will he be able to give me support when I'm down and out? Will he have the ability to hold a proper conversation with me for the years to come?

God knows, the questions that run through my mind right now are endless.

But really, will I ever come to a point in my life when I find someone with whom I can spend my life? I mean, I don't wanna end up marrying someone who doesn't know what to say to me when he gets back from work, or worse, doesn't work and expects me to be the bread-winner. I don't want to marry a person who tells me I can't go to work because I love working and it's something I want to do. I don't want to be with a person who wouldn't support me or someone who would leave me hanging when things get bad.

Maybe I REALLY shouldn't consider marriage AT ALL.

Senang, kan?

thought 2:

I'm a creative soul...aren't I?

Why is it that rejection makes us doubt ourselves and make us feel like we're not good enough?

how much smarter will they get?

Johnson; Age: 2+

John: Knife!

Me: yes, Johnson. Knife. Don't touch.

John: Cannot touch! If touch then cut my hand ah!

Me: clever boy. Don't play with the knife okay?

John: Knife to cut onions! Bad people take knife and CUT people!

Me: YES! Knife to cut onions. Good boy.

John: Police catch bad people when bad people cut people ah?

Me: yes. Are you a bad person or a good person?

John: Johnson good boy.

Me: can good boys play with knives?

John: No..

Me: Can good boys cut people?

John: No.

Me: Can good boys cut onions?

John: Yes!!!

thought 1:

I'm really glad you've found someone who makes you happy.

I know sometimes it doesn't seem that way but it's the truth.

I'm happy for you.

I'm just finding it upsetting that I have to lose another friend over lovers.

You're one of the few people with whom I can easily express myself and now I can't talk to you anymore.

i have a million things in my head...

countless words that need to be spoken.

but my lips can't seem to part,

and my mouth has suddenly lost it's ability to utter.

that's where you're wrong

see, what i saw is not a chance for them to shake HER faith.

what i saw was a chance for her to shake theirs.

i know you think i'm twisted and faithless--but you're wrong.

i just think in a way that's different from yours.

how come your grass is greener than mine?