because she would ask me why I LOVEd her

If questioning would make us wise,
No eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
If all our tale were told in speech
No mouths would wander each to each.
Were spirits free from mortal mesh
And love not bound by hearts of flesh
No aching breasts would yearn to meet
And find their ecstasy complete.
For who is there that lives and knows
The secret powers by which he grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
To thrill and faint and sweetly bleed?
Then seek not sweet, the "if" and "why".
I love you now until I die.
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give.

-Christopher Brennan-

sky high

tell me the secrets of the stars,

whisper them into my ears.

teach me how to catch the moon,

to keep it mine for years.

show me i can reach the sky,

that I can fly as high.

share my secret rendezvous,

in clouds white and sky blue.

swim across the ocean with me,

from one end to the other.

we'll travel cross earth and sea,

oh! the lands that we shall conquer.

gadoh

dengan mak, abah sendiri.

bodoh...

anak derhaka.

nasib je kau tak kena langgar lori tadi.

nasib je kau hidup lagi.

pms: sesuatu yang membuatkan aku meletakkan perkataan "itch" selepas huruf "b"

sorry mama

sorry abah

new love

"hey baby, where you at?" he said.

"just arrived. trip took two hours more than planned," she said.

"oh, dear...you must be beat," he said.

"i am...tired as hell,"she said.

"you should rest then," he said.

"but i want to talk..." she said.

"we can always talk later," he said.

"yeah..." she said.

"we can talk in our dreams," he said.

"i know we will," she said.

"you rest, okay?" he said.

"okay sweetie" she said.

"i'll see you soon," he said.

"yup, in dreamland," she said.

"you take care dear," he said.

"you take care too," she said.

"i love you," they said.

dream dream dream

When I want you in my arms,
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream

When I feel blue in the night,
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine,
Any time, night or day
Only trouble is, gee wiz,
I’m dreamin’ my life away

I need you so that I could die,
I love you so, and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream, dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine,
Any time, night or day
Only trouble is, gee wiz, i
’m dreamin’ my life away

I need you so that I could die,
I love you so, and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do, is
Dream, dream dream dream

stranger

i want you...

in my arms,

where i can hold you,

in my eyes,

where i can see you,

in my mind,

where i can remember you,

and in my heart,

where i can always know you.

HAAAAPPPPPPYYYYYY BBIIIIRRRRTTTTHHHHHDDDAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

ABAH

AND

KAK NA!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope Allah grants your wishes and may both of you live a life full of love and happiness.

nothing comes free

I wanted to join Biggest Loser Club online. Ingatkan free. As in just something online you check on every few days to see what you should eat and what kind of exercises you should do. Rupa-rupanya, ya tuhan...20 USDs a month?!!!!! Okay la, much less than joining a gym I guess.

My uncle lost 10 kilos in a month. The price? Eating rolled oats and nothing else three times a day.

Sanggup?

That seems too pricey for me. I don't know if I can sacrifice all that good food!!!

Yeah, Raja, you can TOTALLY stop being my friend if I bring rolled oats in a tupperware when I go out with you guys.

:'(

i'd do anything to just feel better

lethargy

Rouse me from my deep dead sleep,

Awaken my sleepy senses,

Wake me so that I may weep,

These tears I've kept so long.

Raise my body to the sunlight,

And wake me from my slumber,

Revive my soul so I may fight,

The fight I almost lost.

Shake me up and wake me,

Wake me with your kiss,

Wake me so I may laugh again,

So I may feel joy and bliss.

Wake me up so I may live again.

Wake me up so I may love again.

repetition

over and over and over,

your head over to the wall,

then for the first time,

a cry for help, emergency calls.

"he loves me", "he loves me",

"he does it because he loves me",

you keep telling yourself its you,

lying to yourself to erase what's true.

wake up, wake up, wake up,

open your eyes,

open them wide and see,

there's so much more of which you're worthy.

the thing about writing is...once you start, you can't stop.

the words kinda just flow and its a real huge jumble in your brain and you won't know which ones to pick out and put down into stanzas because after awhile it just gets too much and then you're screwed because you'll get stuck not knowing...

scattered thoughts

I catch my breath when you walk by,

Amazing me with your sweet slow smile,

My thoughts fly,

Recovery takes awhile.

Think, think, think...

I close my eyes and think of what to say,

what to say to make you sway my way,

what to say to make you stay.

But you're a free soul,

A fleeting luxury,

And nothing I could say or do,

Would make you want to stay with me.

kau buat aku tersenyum

1. Nadalmuhtadi

2. Hazwani Rodin

3. Diyana Ghazali

4. Dib

5. Zul

6. Farhana (Nana)

7. Farah (Para)

8. Shahiful Azmi

9. Ninja Assassin :p

10. Raja Adeliza

11. Fatin Shahirah

12. Farah Razif

thank you for making me smile :)

selamat tidur dunia...

the last sms i received tonight was this:

"Please perform your prayers sincerely and honestly, without fail. Please treat this seriously. Allah will only help those who help themselves. Allah must be your number 1 priority, no compromise. Allah maha mengetahui, Allah maha melihat. Tanamkan ni dalam hati, you pasti takkan sesat jalan, insyAllah."

My dad would probably say that I tell everyone everything sampai sms pun nak bagi tahu orang lain, but this was just something i felt i should share.

Good night everyone.

May you only have pretty dreams tonight.

tarikh keramat

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

JEHAN SORAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

treat your tummy with respect

I don't know why, but it seems like a lot of my good memories of my father included sushi sessions....

And I think, aside from my family and my high-school friends, I've never really had a good time while eating sushi with anyone.

So I want to thank Nadal, for sharing a sushi moment with me, and for making me happy :) (and thank you Meme for asking her to teman me :p)

I love you Nadal :)

senyuman ku :)

hari ni, i only spent around half an hour to an hour or so being moody.

Dib, hari ni i senyum je :)

you make me feel superhuman

saya bersedih...

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak whats in my soul

I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I’d pour my heart out on each page

I’d ask for war to end

For peace to mend this world

I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it seems like so much is goin wrong

On this road…… we’re on

If I wrote a note to God

I’d say please help us find our way

End all the bitterness

Put some tenderness in our hearts

And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven’t got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong

On this road we’re on

No, no no no

We can’t do this on our own

So

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven’t got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong

On this road we’re on

No, no no no

We can’t do this on our own

So, So

If I wrote a note to God

should i go?

there's an audition for a voice-over tomorrow morning...

should i go?

maybe i should take a chance...

Abah, Fatin nak balik sebab Fatin rindu Abah, okay?

Hati fatin tak senang kat sini.

Fatin harap Abah faham.

I'll see you soon :)

harini saya senyum kerana:

1. blog Que yang berbunyi sangat kero

2. Nadalmuhtadi

3. Dib bagi chocolate :) (camana nak kurus ni?)

4. Izzat Izhar

5. Status Shiera :p

be optimistic, don't be grumpy, when the road gets bumpy, just smile, smile, smile, be happy!

izzati_noris: are you having a dreadful time there?

i.izhar: recently yes

hahaha

izzati_noris: alaaa....kesian nya...

tak go hang with tikky?

you're busy with what work?

i.izhar: jauh la kak

very far

if jalan 2011 baru sampai

LOL

i have 4 coursework, 3500wordsx3 + 500

btw i moved in to my new place

izzati_noris: yeah, well, i ingat maybe weekends korang spend together sometimes

oh yeah?

best tak?

i.izhar: ermm

just moved in

so theres one frekin hot chick

meleleh babe

hahaha :p

lol

and 4 more to come

its holiday now, and they might come back by this week

izzati_noris: hahahahaha

i.izhar: so i think i will be cuci mata everysingle day

izzati_noris: one frickin hot chick yang meleleh ni jiran ke housemate?

i.izhar: lalalla

izzati_noris: hahaha

seronok la you

i.izhar: housemate

izzati_noris: OMG!!!!!

i.izhar: hot gila

izzati_noris: LAGI SERONOK!

i.izhar: rumah yg sejuk jadi warm

hahahaha

izzati_noris: hahahaha

you're so lucky!!!!!

haha

i dapat jiran handsome je

housemate memang impossible la

i.izhar: hahah

LOL

eh fatin

m off to bed

tired and sleepy

will ttyl

x

izzati_noris: okay...don't tersalah bed pulakn

night night

i.izhar: hahahhahahahhahah

bodoh!!!

i'll try

izzati_noris: la, kata housemate

mungkin terjadi

hehe

bye!

i.izhar: i'll open my door

:p

lol

izzati_noris: haha

stupid la you

night

i.izhar: ite

its not stupid, its optimistic

hahah

this is why i miss you :)

apa salah saya encik?

Encik, marah sangat ke sampai bagi saya assignment yang paksa saya baca akhbar Metro dan Kosmo?

Tak boleh ke bagi assignment yang boleh baca New Strait Times ke, Star ke...sedap sikit mata saya membaca.

Suruh baca Metro dengan Kosmo, macam perli je cik.