Thursday, May 27, 2010

the words that they have said, the secrets they have told

You are special. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.

"you've always been one sparkly and bright, so, being lame kadang-kadang is fine"

-Miss Gator-

"the someones who are there are like bonuses.

but in the end, we're so awesome on our own"


"You put in so much for your friends, for your kids, for those you love,

how could you ever figure yourself out to be somebody unkind?"

"you're something else you know. :) 

don't let others tell you pretentious is a bad quality. 'cause it's not. being an intelligent woman is not a crime."

-Gleek of the Century-


Question: When did it become okay for 13 year old or 19 year old teenagers to handle guns and knives, buy bazookas online, and become serial killers?

(Chloe Moretz)

She's 13, seriously. And I have no idea how much younger she was when filming was in progress. Her character expertly handled knives and guns. In one scene, she was flying in the air, holding one gun in each hand and changing ammo (in the AIR!!!!!) without even putting her guns down. She beat a bunch of beefy Mafia dudes with her awesome stealth and killer instincts. Well, really, she beat a few bunches of beefy Mafia dudes.

(Christopher Mintz)

Okay, he's 21. Much older than Chloe Moretz, but still. At that age, HE was also handling guns, and helping his Mafia father catch Hit Girl and Big Daddy (btw, what kind of superhero name is BIG DADDY?! It sounds downright WRONG!!). He SHOT a twelve year old! DELIBERATELY!

(Aaron Johnson)

Okay THIS...well, although he mostly didn't do much of the beating up (which is really quite ironic considering he's the main character), he still ended up killing someone, with a bazooka I might the age of 20 no less. And in real life, he is engaged to a 42 year old Sam Taylor Wood, who is currently pregnant, yes, with his child.

WHEN DID THIS BECOME ACCEPTABLE?! I mean, YES, I am very aware that some children face violence at a way earlier age than this. I am aware that there are children who are forced to join the army at the age of 13 or 20, but WHY are we promoting them to those who do not need to face it? Is the world not crazy enough already as it is?

lelaki lain macam

My father, ever the wise man, said to me "lelaki yang boleh tahan you ni...lelaki lain macam sikit"

Apparently, I am one of those girls who's hard to be with because of my lack of tolerance, my big headed-ness, my stubborn demeanor, etc, etc. Apparently, girls like me (all of the above and more) need men--real men, not boys, and not wimpy guys--who are strong enough to be able to allow me to exude my strength without actually emasculating him, or making him feel smaller.

I've been told that I'm a person who deserves a man who will be good to me; a man who can respect my thoughts and still be able to share his without imposing, a man who will allow me to grow, a man who can accept me when I'm too needy and/or too independent, a man who will complement my intelligence (if I have any) but still understand and entertain my childishness, a man who can afford to take me where I want to go (because God knows I have TONNES of places to go to). So elusive person who's so hard to find, I hope I will meet him some day, I hope he will find me deserving, I hope he will be able to love me for me.

Whomever you may be, Mr. Right, Lelaki Lain Macam, I miss you dearly. And one day, when the time is right, I pray you will come up to me, say "hello" and change the rest of my life.

Until then...

Friday, May 21, 2010

can we pretend that the airplanes in the night sky are shooting stars?

“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

its been 2 and a half months,

and it surprises me that I really can mean every word when I say that not a day passes by when you don't cross my mind at least once. I never guessed that I could miss my annoying kid brother so much :) And for the first time, ever, we couldn't celebrate your birthday together. I hope, where you are, you will enjoy yourself and appreciate our birthday gift to you (hint: it's the 49 year old lady in hijab a.k.a Mama) and everything else that we've sent along with her (which, honestly, is a WHOLE LOT of things).

hehe :p

Happy 16th Birthday baby brother :)

trust me, i will not wait around for you...

my plans for the weekend (that does not include you because you're being a jerk):

1. Red Velevet cake hunting

2. Shrek Forever After

3. Bake Shepherd's Pie and scrumpdiddlyicious brownies (and make some cash)

4. Paint with a bunch of 6 year olds who love me.

I could really use a wish right now

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


And if she runs away she fears she won't be followed
What could be the worse than leaving something behind
And as the depth of oceans slowly become shallow
It's loneliness she finds...
If only he was mine

Monday, May 17, 2010

through the eye of a good quality lense

do you know where I'm going with this, Abah?

Nikon D3000 is currently sold at RM 1999 with all the basic accessories.

Yes, I know it's widely becoming a trend to carry a DSLR around your neck even when you can't take a single decent picture, but that's not why I want the camera. Truth be told, ever since I was a child, I've been very fascinated by the things people can capture with a camera. And most of the time, any camera would do, but we both know that a quality camera does so much more. I'm eager to learn the right techniques, anticipating the acquisition of new skills, and looking forward to finally seeing the world in a different way.

Maybe one day :)

For now, I'll just have to wait patiently until my pocket's full of dough. Haha.


bad editing, i know.
i miss all of you.
just so we're clear, it's super hard to be without you.

Friday, May 14, 2010

10,000 BC

Me: cool kan? orang kat 10,000 BC pun boleh cakap English. Perfect English pulak tu

Abah: *snigger*

Me: Lagi satu benda COOL!!!!! Orang perempuan 10,000 BC tak de bulu ketiak!

Abah: Ape pulak..dia buang la...

Me: Dengan apa?!

Abah: wax.(note: ayat ini diucapkan dengan nada dan mimik muka selamba)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.” 

-Anais Nin-

“Don't wish me happiness-I don't expect to be happy it's gotten beyond that, somehow. Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor-I will need them all.” 

-Anne Morrow Lindbergh-

“Strength is born in the deep silence of long-suffering hearts; not amid joy.” 

-Arthur Helps-

to my darling friend, Kamilia Khairy

tak nak bagi, sudah,
name ex kau Dolah
tetek dia sebelah

(gelak jahat)

if you only knew

if you only then how you would ruin her;
how you would change the way she used to see the world--like a child;
how you would turn her into a person so hard;
how you would change her so that every time she wonders about the world, all she could do is cry....

if you only knew then how you would ruin her,
you never would have said "hello";
you never would have made the first move;
you never would have left her hanging....

if you only knew then how you would ruin her;
but you didn't know,
and now she is ruined,

something smells fishy

I had a relatively good day yesterday; an ordinary day filled with ordinary things that provided me with an extraordinary sense of joy...somehow. And even though i had my fever and whatnot, it was still a good day.
Even the classes were okay. I scored 15/20 for my Arab quiz (although that involved a large amount of tiru-ing) and I think I did pretty well for my LOP quiz as well.

This was my day in picture :)

in spite of our colour differences, we're still good friends :p

i have decided to make Wani my personal canvas. haha.

this was Wani trying to rock out the brand new "Rempit tattoo"

yes, we were awfully hungry...

oh...big plates are almost always good :)-- diet? what diet?!

our current favourite dessert, CHOCOLATE CROISSANTS!!!!

Wani had free coupons for Reborn's Fish Spa which originally costs RM 38 for a 20 minute treatment. Waste not, want not my darlings :) We decided to use 'em up before they expire. Ya geli. We were all trying to contain our laughter throughout the first 15 minutes.

the fishies swarmed my feet!!!!!

they were trying so hard to stop from laughing.

my feet and Wani's feet (couldn't get a picture of Nadal's since we were too far apart)

I had fun girlies :) thank you for making my ordinary day extraordinary. You girls are real gems


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

knock, knock.

you're home!
where have you been?
i've been wishing you were here with me for ages now.
i kept thinking i'd be okay if you'd only call me;
if you'd only drop by to say hello...
will you be home long?
where will you go?
but that's miles away...
and why so soon?
will i be seeing you again, sometime in the near future?
i wish you didn't have to leave...
i wish you'd just stay with me.

if i promised to keep my eyes closed,
do you promise to stay, here?

today's specials

sometimes, the best days are not filled with magic and special surprises.
sometimes, the best days are made up only of some time spent with good friends.
thank you Nadal and Wani for always making my days special :)

Monday, May 10, 2010

its funny

when you're growing up, all the time they try to pry you, shape you, and mould you into a cylinder. after many years, you finally become a perfectly cylindrical and then they try to stuff you into a prismatic container.


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